Now, six days since the last blog entry – possibly a record. Why wasn’t I tapping the keyboard?
It’s been a tough few days, health-wise. The MND is advancing: balance, walking, breathing, left side muscles, hand strength, saliva control, head support, all are worse. On top of that though it’s been extreme exhaustion, more than I could ever have imagined. It’s only about twenty yards from bedroom to living room but that’s enough to get me sinking heavily onto the sofa to recover.
I’ve been having almost no sleep. It was potentially a serious health scare, unrelated to MND, keeping me awake for much of the night and which might have needed an operation, but tests indicate it’s just an infection which should be cleared up in a few days with the antibiotic my excellent GP supplied two days ago. Fingers crossed.
I’m going to take a two week break, resting in the flat and hopefully getting some energy back. It’s mid-August so there will be radio silence in the blog until the start of September unless something cataclysmic happens, such as DP growing whiskers again. No, fear not …
If you’re interested, I’ll be indulging in a favourite pastime: staring at the wall, staring through the window, staring at the roof garden, and letting the mind wander gently over anything it likes, including Life. We live a poor life if we can’t do that occasionally. Which reminds me – and the words were contrived to do so – of this simple, true poem that many will know:
What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare?-
No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows:
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass:
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night:
No time to turn at Beauty’s glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance:
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began?
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
Nice, eh? I’ll be sitting and staring, and enjoying. Sitting or standing, join me?
See you next month.