4 Oct, 2021

Again a summary …

… and, like a good summary, it’s not long.

I changed my mind.  I’d been thinking about describing the current DP condition in blog instalments – head problems, then later legs, then arms, then breathing, then sleep and so on. Then decided that was ridiculous: gloom after gloom after gloom, and anyone who’s been reading the blog for some time will already know the headlines and will realise that it’s all just getting worse, so why labour the point?

Instead here’s a summary. Click it. The illness has been accelerating recently so my timescale has shortened.  Not nice, but it’s happened.

A final thing for today.  Am I depressed?  No.  Still have interests and a sense of humour.  I’m just struggling more and more, and am alarmed, and know it will get even worse, and don’t want more suffering, and I particularly don’t want to be shackled to machines.  So the logic is clear, to me at least.  And as I’ve said many times, I’m completely reconciled to my preferred route.

If a good theme springs to mind the next blog post will be something completely different.

 

2 Comments

  1. I didn’t want this post to be uncommented. I know so many will have read it, with deep sadness and love; and are speechless in the face of your suffering. I am. We’re so grateful to you for summoning the huge effort to share this update: for the hugely important contribution this post – and all of your brilliant blog and other media work – will hopefully have for the fundraising and influence of both MNDA and Dignity In Dying. So glad you’re keeping your sense of humour and invictus spirit; and that Tim is with you in it all. Peace and love

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  2. What else is there to add, Chris (above) has said it all. However, my own love is with you in spirit every day as is the love of my Family. Alice sends her love from Cambridge Uni and Frazer and Family in Scotland always ask how you are. Lots of love all the way my friend. Xxxx

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